"Love Love Love"

Well… June 28, 2005… I was online and just checking my mail, xempre chat nrin s YM… then my ng-pm sken, don’t remember ever talking to her before pero nk-save xa sa list ko… so, kinausap k narin… friendly nmn ako(haha), well, as it turns out she’s a girl about my age pla… just older than her by a few months… pero n2wa ako s knya kc kht 1st tym lng nmn mgusap... she opened personal stuff up… k2wa xa kz kwen2 xa ng kwen2…pero I answered her nmn… mejo ng-share dn nga mga personal stuff(though it was unusual 4 me to open up like dat)…but I didn’t exert effort to talk w/ her further, didn’t even ask for her name…heh i thought she was just one of those peepz that I would only talk to once or twice, so I didn’t mind her too much…

A couple of days later I had to finish a project kz deadline n nung Monday, nkchat ko xa uli… heh, then we got to know each other better na…. we asked for each other’s name and “getting to know” stuff… taz aun, mhilig nga xa mgkwen2.. heh nkk2wa… dme nya nssbe kht di ako mxdo ngrreply… xguro mga 5 paragraphs n nssbe nya taz reply ko, “oh? Nakz nmn!”…haha… gmgwa nga kz ko ng project nun!... heh, pero I thought she was interesting… di dahil sa talents, looks, wit or social standing… di nga nmn kz 2 pageant...I liked her coz she was open and pngttygaan nya ko kauzap kht wla nga nmn ako kwenta kauzap nun…haha… so I asked for her cel #... I don’t usually do that… normally ibng peepz ung mgttnong ng # ko first.. pero wla lng… there was just something bout her… heh…

So there… we started talking 2 each other more often… dahil makulitz tlga ko tntxt ko xa from am 2 pm… heh… minzan nga n22lugan ko pa(sorry)…hehe… as the days passed by, I started to grow fond of her… kz… iba xa sa ibang gurls n nkilala ko… yeh mdmeng gurls na sweet, caring, kind, talented, pretty… pero hndi un eh… iba xa kz… I could talk to her about everything… very open xa zken s lht ng mga bagay… and I was happy n kht ppno my trust xa sken… kya ngng open din ako s knya… all my probs, secrets, and kht daily routine nssbe ko s knya…even our faith ky Lord… npguuzapan nmn… lhat tlga!... and I could see na she really did care about those stuff… taz nung time n un.. prng lgi p xa my sakit…+_+… ngaalala nmn ako kz ng sobra kz prng lgi nlng… so I always txtd her to check up on her… and sa mga stuff n nsshare namen… iba tlga xa kz xa lng ung nkilala ko n nkkrel8 s mga pr0bz k0… xure ung iba szbhn, “ah gnun ba?..kya mo yan don’t’ worry”… pero xmpre hndi nla nrrmdan ung nrmdman m0…d nla nxperience ung mga npgdaanan m0ng hardshipz… di cla nkkrelate… per0 xa… mejo prehaz nga ung mga npgdaanan nmn… kya maz npalapit ung loob ko s knya… mya din maz nagng open kme sa isa’t isa…and xguro ngng reason un n maz ngng cloze kme…

After a few months ngng maz cloze p kme… heh she even gave me a nickname… “deeh”… and I called her “leeh”… heh… I really felt something for her… then the next thing I know I was calling her “mahal k0”… heh…

I really do love her… never felt this strongly for anyone else… lots of people say I’m a playboy… kht nga dun s 1st impressions sa pbbfg… heh… dat was b4!... dati 22o…playboy nga xguro tlga… d nmn ung tipong sabay2 ung gfs at a time… ung tipong simpleng pa-cute… it waz like a game…didn’t take stuff seriously…if a gurl had strong feelings for u after all the flirtin, ok talo xa..+_+… bzta… pero dati un!... di n ngaun…heh…

Ever since I met her… she changed me!... d nmn ako gn2 dati… ung s0brng c0rny +_+… zka di din ako mrunong mgsel0z… nd mzaktan….per0 s knya nrnazan k0 un…mahal k0 nga tlga… Dti kz… wla lng ung iba… and I’m trying to change pra z knya… kz nga nmn.. mejo playboy dti… pero ngaun d n tlga!... loyal na.. hehe.. mahal ko kz un… and di ko xa kayang mawala….

Dme na naming npgdaanan… dme na ding instancez where peepz were tryin to pull us apart… pero thank God hndi nya hnyaan un… we’re both thankful ky Lord nga kz He’s the reason for everything… and I believe that He was the one who let our paths cross… kht di p kme ngkkta… kht di ko pa xa nkkzma… I know that my feelings for her are genuine… and I do love her with all that I am…

Sa lhat ng trials n npgdaanan nmen(d k n kkwen2 mxdo mdme)… it just made our relationship stronger!… and I’m very thankful dhil anjan pa xa… di xa ngszawa mgtyaga… anjan xa para zken… and I will always be here for her as well... I know… God has a plan for us… and… we just have to wait and see what that is… even if circumstances forbid us to be with each other… maybe someday…I know God has a plan… and we just have to trust that…
basta alam ko… I love you LAURICE ADRIANO!... my leeh… ung mahal ko… kahit ano mangyari… no one will take her place… I love her and only her… wlng hihigit s knya… and I’ve decided… na xa ung mahal ko… and xa lng mamahalin ko!... I really thank her that she’s there… and I thank the Lord for all the blessings that He’s given me… and my leeh’s definitely one of the best blessings yet!...

For the 8 m0nthz i've kn0wn y0u... i just learned to love u more and more...bsta…. Leeh… always remember that I love you… no one’s gonna change how I feel for you… naalala mo ba ung mga promises nten?.... tutuparin ko un… di ako mgbbgo... kng my mgbbgo man... un lng xgurong mmhalin pa kta lalo! kahit paulit2 ko nang cnsbi... xguro kht mga ngbbza n2ng p0zt nrrindi n s paulit2... per0 22o kz! kht ilang bezez k0 ulit ulitin... kht zawa k na marinig n sbhn ko... mhal n mahal n mahal kta! ikaw lng... *whispers*...i pray that this will last...i love you my leeh...

A VOW...

Set me whereas the sun doth parch the green,Or where his beams do not dissolve the ice; In temperate heat, where he is felt and seen; In presence prest of people, mad, or wise; Set me in high, or yet in low degree; In longest night, or in the shortest day; In clearest sky, or where clouds thickest be; In lusty youth, or when my hairs are gray; Set me in heaven, in earth, or else in hell,In hill, or dale, or in the foaming flood; Thrall, or at large, alive whereso I dwell, Sick, or in health, in evil fame or good,Hers will I be; and only with this thought Content myself, although my chance be nought.

- Dylan